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Mood: Psyched

Currently Listening to: 6th Sense - Megan and Liz

We had our very first lecture yesterday with our temporary time-tables. Honestly, I think it's absurd, we have like, an hour of talk almost every morning. Time to head to the library to get new reads. Anyway, I had Chemistry then Biology and a two hour lunch break. Goodness, only 6 of my OGmates are Biology students and three are Art students and the rest are Physics students. WHY PHYSICS. *dramatic gasp*

We bought our lecture and tutorial notes for Chemistry, Math and Biology and spent the two hours break attempting the questions. God, we haven't had a single Math lecture yet and we were already halfway done. Go Maira. (I realy need to learn how to spell Maira without editing from Maria)

We had this Graphing Calculator talk yesterday and because Maria was soooooooo united, we had to stick together and ended up at the circle seats of the Auditorium and we were laughing all the way because we couldn't get what the speaker was talking about. Anisha couldn't stop texting and Huai Pin kept meddling with her GC until it became weird. Adam practically went crazy. I bet Shaun was the only one who managed to get it.

You know, I think I'm going to be really smart if I study with my OG. Yay, come let's mug together during our breaks and laugh at whoever who's worth laughing at.

And yeah, i just realised that there isn't H1 Mother Tongue in the temporary time-table. Does that mean we won't have Chinese in the month of February? *wild screams*

You know I'm actually such a loser because I still can't remember the names of the guys in my OG. Like I can't match the names to their faces. Okay I know who's Adam, Shaun, Weekian, Rayson (because I pronounced his name as Royson the other day and he freaked out), Nicholas and Gary and I don't know the rest. I am so sorry. How can I get gifts for Valentine's day when I don't even know your name?!?!?!?

I'm meeting up with my brothers later at Yuhua village. So much to gossip and catch up.

xoxo.

Mood: Awesome

Currently Listening to: Mumbo Number 5 - Lou Bega

I've been extremely busy and drained from Orientation since the start of school. Orientation. 2010. Was. A. Blast. *screams* Orientation Group 10(OG10) - Maira from the Aliance Tritone (Yes I know, "Whoa. Huge terms much") and we've been cheering and perspiring and perspiring and dancing and strategizing for the games for the past five days. It was mad, hell mad, mad fun. CLICK CLICK FOR PICTURES

The first day was boring because I'm so not used to being the juniors, so used to being in the Council, cheering like idiots. Anyway, on the last day or Orientation I spelt Maira was Maria. I didn't realise it. God, such a klutz.

Orientation ended yesterday and we had College CIP at East Coast Park this morning. Yeah I know, it's like I travel to Yio Chu Kang in the every day and today I travel to the other side of Singapore. Go, Estelle. Anyway the beach was clean, as usual. (-.-) We had fun spotting litter, including tons of cigarette butts and bottle caps. Honestly, don't these people know that smoking causes chronic bronchitis and emphysema? Take Biology, kids.

I had my first ever Choir practise in the afternoon (my new friends and I cabbed to AJ) with the Gold with Honours Choir. What are my feelings? Ultimate bliss. My shoutouts? HOLY CRAP THEY SOUND BLOODY AWESOME. Wait, I, myself, sound a whole lot better too. Aww awesome.

I'm so beat, lessons begin tomorrow. I've Biology, Chemistry and an hour of free period, then a calculator talk in the afternoon. Sweet.

xoxo.

Mood: Satisfied

Currently Listening to: Bad Romance - Megan and Liz (cover)

Hey guys, thank you for texting me and commenting and nudging me on MSN about the previous post; I really appreciated it alot. So what's up in my life right now? I'm done waiting for AC's reply. I've been avioding my nemesis for eight years already, it's going to continue. Habits. Anyway, I'm liking Anderson (despite the 57.27245783minutes of train ride to school with YiHao) and my new friends.

My Orientation Group (OG)'s number 10 and the Jurongvillers posted there are all separated. Really separated - OG 1, 10(me), 25 and 38. Whoa. In my group, half of us are transferring out. How sweet. But I'd reckon none of us would be accepted and we'll end up in Anderson. Oh well, we like each other. I think.

The first thing that happened the moment we assembled in the hall was that University Brochures was given out and I was like, "Huh? It's only the first day of school." Anyway, the first day was B to the O-R-I-N-G because we sat in the Lecture Theatre (LT) for the entire day, listening to teachers clucking about their subjects and everything. The Literature teacher sounded fun and funny. The rest were .... (I'll keep my comments to myself). The Principal kept repeating, "Begin with the end in mind." If I really were to think like that, I'm actually in the wrong school. I should be in NAFA. Anyway, I've picked my subject combination: H2 Chemistry, Biology, Mathematics. H1 Economics, Literature or Geography. There are three choices so I left the sciences the same and humanities different. I really can't decide on the Humanities. Then I took the train to Boon Lay to meet my fellow Jurongvillers at our beloved Jurong Point for extremely late lunch.

Day 2 (yesterday) was where the real fun began, my new friend from Catholic High didn't really respond much to me. I met three girls whom I think are going to be really close to me for the next two years. It's like we couldn't stop talking. One of them, Sophia, would be transferring out to AC. Aww, we're going to miss her. She reminds me of Yentil, maybe that's why we click. My LT partner's this guy(Shaun) from Maris Stella. Yeah, we talk a lot too. Typically I personalities.

We played games and had the cutest mass dance ever. I heard the one from JJC is the exact same one from LINE Camp. (Another bad point about JJC) In the afternoon, we had the CCA briefing and the HOD for PE was talking at the speed of a snail crawling. Like seriously. He read word for word, maybe one second per word. Shaun and I kept whining under our breaths.

Another three days of Orientation to go for AJ, no camp though. Wonder if it's good or bad.

We had the CCA Fair after that and I ran to the Choir booth and went for a pre-audition straightaway. My main purpose of coming to Anderson is actually for the Gold with Honours Choir conducted by Mr Nelson Kwei. Again, wikipedia him if you don't know who he is. I passed the pre-auditions and I'll be seeing NK on Monday for the actual one. If I'm in then hehehhehehe, I'll be so happy.

We'll be having a March Camp and performance at Esplanade, trip to Europe for competition-cum-tour and Caroling in December. I'm so going to have fun. I hope my voice will be NK-worthy on Monday.

I was also approached by a couple of Student Councillors a few times and asked to join the Council. In JCs, SC is called Students' Council and it's actually considered as a CCA. I would have joined the Students' Council if it weren't a CCA. Meetings are on every Wednesdays, which clashed with Choir sessions which are on Mondays, Wendesdays and Thursdays. *Always prioritise Choir* So I took the application form anyway, Mum says to just fill it up. I'll probably go for the interview and turn down the offer.

Mum says I should take the green line and change at Raffles Place to the red line instead of taking the red line all the way. I might try that, some day.

I look horrible in the uniform. I still prefer AC's uniform, anyway for the sake of securing a place in my future Choir(Vocal Consort), I'm willing to do anything.

I miss my BFFs! I miss my readers! I miss my Secondary School friends. I miss waking up at 6 instead of 5.

xoxo.

Mood: Psyched

Currently Listening to: Don't Close the Book - Honor Society

I didn't know that the word Honour from Honor Society comes without the letter "u". That's pretty irrelavent, must be the American versus British spelling.

I haven't been blogging these days, because whenever I sign into onsugar, I actually update the 4A onsugar instead. I got carried away. It became my second blog. Whoa.

So when my eyes fluttered open like a little butterfly, I switched on my phone and text messages flooded the screen and yes, you've guessed it. The screen froze for a couple a seconds so I dozed off again. Then I saw the text message from 74688 that went, "MOE: ESTELLE NG LI EN, you are posted to ANDERSON JC. SCIENCE (21S) under 2010 JAE." and it was probably said in the robotic, monstrous tone. Whoa. Anderson. First thought: OMG CHOIR. MR NELSON KWEI. (kids, please wikipedia him) Second thought: reply text. Third thought: Text EQ. Fourth thought: Oh god, Anderson is stinkingly far. It's in the red line.

I dragged myself online after breakfast and putting on my new vision. Goodness, can you believe that I'm wearing contact lens. My eyes, felt so squishy. We should have done a practical during Biology when Mr A was teaching Chapter 11. Whoa. Sorry, OOT.

So kids, I'm in the dilemma now. Anderson is in Yio Chu Kang (Yunbei says I can visit EQ at YUX) and it's like an hour's train ride on the bloody red line but it offers Mr NK, very good pick if I want a place in the Vocal Consort. My heart's in Anglo-Chinese which is in Buona Vista, 198 brings me there, directly (a few blocks away) from my house and my nemesis is over there. I'm in a dilemma. Please text me, anyone who has suggestion.

Prioritise A Levels or Choir?

xoxo.

Mood: Below Average

Currently Listening to: Crush - Paramore

I shouldn't be here online before 9. It's supposed to be Piano Practice Time (PPT). But unfortunately or fortunately, my cramps are killing me. Yes it's that time of the month and I really wish I was a guy sometimes. Talk about the decrement in Pain, Money spent on Ps and Time managing the cramps. -sigh-

I planned to jog yesterday. It was an impromptu decision because I remember in my new year resolution, that I have to exercise - jog/swim - as least once in a fortnight. Knowing how I always procrastinate about exercising, I dragged myself out of the house. So yesterday I used a different route because I was soooooooo extremely tired-slash-lazy-slash-actually-very-lazy to use the same route I've been using for a year already. The previous route takes me from my house, to the Jurongville canal where we have our 2.4torture run and back pass the Polyclinic straight all the way home. Usually I complete my jog in half an hour, but this time....

The route I intended to use was the outline of Jurong East st 21. So yeah, definitely way shorter and everything. Anyway, barely five minutes of jogging, I felt this excruciating lower abdominal pain (at the lower abdomen. duh) and I had the urge to squat on the spot until the pain goes away. Obviously, it would have been extremely weird and attention-seeking if I were to do that in the middle of the path because I was wearing the bright yellow Lightning house t-shirt and I would be blocking everyone's way so I passed. I ended up cutting through the blocks and walking back to mine. Honestly, I felt like I was about to faint-slash-die-slash-bleed-to-death-slash-faint.

It's so amazing how this whole 5-10-17-28 Menstrual Cycle works and how Progesterone and Oestrogen controls the cycle. Not. *rolls my eyes*

Have you noticed the song that's currently playing (in my head)? It's odd, I know. I've never heard of songs by Paramore and this song is actually playing but it wasn't technically sung by Paramore. The voice in my head belongs to Zany. Whoa. I know. It's random. I know.

Anyway, has anyone wondered why I put that picture up? ^ Not because we've been hanging out with our smarty-pants-slash-vertically-challenged Biology teacher lately, but because Shaffiqa(who's apparently not in the picture D: ) and I are planning for the first ever 4A class outing! *high-pitched squeals*

And planning is tough, you know what I'm sayin'? Because A, i'm clueless at planning. B, I've bad money-management skills. C, I'm lazy.

Don't panic, 4A. I can do this. We. Can. Do. This. *sings theme song from Bob the Builder*

Need a new layout.

xoxo.

[edit]This was the original picture. -sigh- Now it looks horrendous. -double sigh-

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Mood: Neutral

Currently Listening to: Stargirl - Mcfly

If you have read my tweets, "With such advanced technology, personal conversations have been totally redefined." should ring a bell on you.

With twitter and facebook, myspace and some other websites where sharing of thoughts is improvised, this whole personal conversation theory has been totally refined. Y'know on twitter, we reply someone by placing an '@' sign in front of their username, and on facebook, we can comment on their status or wall post. It's cool in a way, that not only two people can participate in the conversation and how the communication barrier between some people can be removed. On the other hand, programs like MSN has become a little pointless because we get too busy replying on twitter/facebook that we forget about MSN.

In a way, it's freaky. Everyone knows what your friends are up to. Actually, they even know the content of the conversation. (-.-)

Enough said.............................................................................................................................................................................................. So this is how it feels to write an essay GP. Whoa. Freaky. Can't do.

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I've been procrastinating a lot. I haven't written a decent work for the next chapter of my book. I haven't exercised! *dramatic gasp* I told myself to swim! Swim Swim Swim! Plus, my piano teacher's really drilling me for my Grade 5 Practical exam (July-September) and Grade 6 theory (i have no idea when). I've six pieces to practise this week. Joy. And i realised I can only focus in the morning, I have no idea why.

My life, is always so busy.

xoxo.

Mood: Eccentric

Currently Listening to: Life's What You Make It - Miley Cyrus

So yesterday I was sorting out the pictures to be developed and pasted in my photo album. My oh my, guess what I've found?

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Taken during the Choir Christmas Concert 2007. WE HAVE ALL CHANGED!!!! PHYSICALLY, OF COURSE. GOODNESS. I laughed for like, ten minutes straight. I'm going to make a multiply album. I can't type anymore, can't think straight. Y'know why? 'Cuz i'm too busy laughing.

xoxo.

Mood: Demoralised

Currently Listening to:  Seasons of Love - RENT

I cannot believe i'm crying over this.
I cannot believe I can't get over the fact that when I was in Primary 3, my best friend then said this to me: "I don't want to be your friend. You should know why."
I cannot believe that I can't get over that statement and since then, for the past  eight years, I have been avioding her. She lives just next block. Her mother is obnoxious and braggy. I dislike her mother. A lot. I don't greet her mother even though Mum was pretty mad at me because I was rude. I don't like pretending okay. Pretending to a woman who likes to brag about just anything. Anything! Like, when her oldest daughter gave birth, she broadcasted and I bet the entire Jurong knows about it, especially the wet market. Great, Aunty, you're an ah soh now. Ha. Ha. Ha. (staccato)
I can't believe fate made us meet. Everywhere! From taiwan, to yesterday's open house at ACJC.
I can't believe. I can't believe she beat me in everything! From a Gold with Honours Choir to Olevel results (8distinctions).
I can't believe. That I want to go to ACJC and she's there.

I cannot believe why I'm so upset about it. Why am I so upset and demoralised and affected by this? It's my life. I want to be in that Gold with Honours Choir. She wants it to. Look, she even changed her name, call me Janet now instead of Estelle k. (hahaha) Having successfully avioded her for eight years, I probably have to face her again. Why. Why can't I just let it go? Why.

I think it's because I'm afraid. I'm afraid history will repeat. Rejection. I'm so afraid of the stupid pathetic comments and remarks people will make if I don't make it. I'm so afraid of what people think about me. I'm so afraid. I'm so nervous.

Look, I can't believe i'm crying over this.

I don't believe in God, neither am I interested in the other religions. I just hope I'll make the right choices. I can't talk to anyone face to face, because if i do, I'll start tearing. I'm a weakling, I can't think straight when I'm talking.

This negative thoughts has to go away. I need to swim. I need to join a Gold with Honours Choir.

And also, I need to know why the only college in Jurong is Jurong Junior College.

We're living in the wrong part of Singapore, my friends. Let's face it, life is tough. Let the world end in 2012.

Thank you people for having faith in me, EQ, Yentil, my friends, teachers, everyone. I really aprreciate it. And for Mum, I'm sorry. This was what she texted me: "V competitive! betta focus mo on ur studies n music fr now." Look, i just want to sing in a Choir. That's all. I'm tired about practising the piano. Stupid piece, My fingers can't stretch for an octave for the entire piece.

xoxo.

I feel like doing something suicidal.

Not literally jump off the building but I feel like just filling in only ACJC for the application form.